Baby It’s Cold Outside

Wow it’s been a couple of months since i last blogged…i’m just glad it hasn’t been a couple of years lol sooo updates on my life:

My dad’s friend passed away right before thanksgiving on November 19th, 2010. That makes it less than 6 months after his diagnosis. The man didn’t even have a fighting chance. The funeral was open casket and the man i saw in it did not resemble him in any way. Later on my dad told me that he actually looked better in the casket than he did right before he died. It’s unimaginable how extensively chemo ravages your body and mind. And as usual my dad was being the “strong unemotional chinese man”, helping out with the funeral arrangements and other details of it without stopping even once. But i knew there was a lot going through his mind when i saw him standing over the casket for five minutes just staring at his friend. I really do hope the man is in a better place now. RIP Uncle Lok.

On a lighter note, i have made four cakes to celebrate life in the past couple of months. Three for friends and one for my mom. It’s kind of ridiculous how many of my friends and family have birthdays in October. There is no way i can ever make a cake for everyone because i’d basically be spending every day that month making a cake and although i would love doing that i just don’t have the time =P. but here are some pictures of the cakes:

And for the people i missed this year and previous years (aka Lina, Jenny, and Tracey) i apologize for the delays in making you guys one but i will get to it as soon as it’s possible for me to actually present the cake to you!!! =D

Also it’s been four years since Michael and I started going out so i also made these to celebrate:

And school? Well school always sucks and every body knows that so i’ll just leave to your imagination how badly this piece of shit school called St. John’s has gone to hell. Also i’d like to think that school is completely separate from my real life…lol

IT’S GOING TO BE CHRISTMAS IN T-MINUS 3 DAYS!!!! I’m going to make a gingerbread house for the family Christmas party this year so i’ll be posting again soon to let you know how it goes. Most likely disasterous…lol

So Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone!!! Cherish the time you have to spend with you’re loved ones!!! and go make some awesome memories!!!

so strong yet so fragile…

there are constant reminders all around us of how fragile and precious life really is. i think unlike most people i tend to be more aware of them because there are just so many things about life that i love that i’d hate to part with when i leave this world. today i was given another reminder but unlike other times this one really hit me hard. i had to go to the hospital today with a good friend of my dad’s to do translations. the purpose of the visit was to see results of CT scans done because of the discovery of a growth on his pancreas. the doctor told me that he had pancreatic cancer and it had metastasized to his liver, fat tissue, and skin. she proceeded to tell me that with chemotherapy he may live for another year or two but there was a chance he would only make it for a few months more.  translating all of that back to my dad’s friend was one of the hardest things i’ve ever done in my life. i hope i never have to do anything like this ever again. and to think doctors do this everyday, probably even multiple times a day.i will never forget the reaction on his face as i relayed everything back to him…and just like that his world came crashing down. i can’t even begin to imagine what he’s feeling right now…and on top of that no one in his family cares about him. his own wife said that she doesn’t ask if he doesn’t tell. and instead of keeping him company and offering moral support she’d rather go to work like normal to earn that twenty something dollars a day at the clothing factory. the children are completely engrossed in their own lives and seem totally unfazed by the situation. WTF IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE???? i know chinese people have been stereotyped as being unemotional but this is just absolutely fucking ridiculous!!! nothing is worse than having to deal with so much alone. a good, honest, and hard working man doesn’t deserve to suffer like this. nobody does. i’m just glad that he has good friends like my dad to give him the emotional support he needs in these tough times. i hope the rest of his days will be better…

because origami is just not enough

so as of yesterday i have been sucked into the world of papercraft…lol but seriously there are some sick ass paper models of things out there like this life size paper model of Link from legend of zelda (INSANE I TELL YOU!!) made by an asian dude (no suprise there) amongst other things that are less insane but still very difficult.

of course i am not going to even try to attempt such craziness so i’ve settled for these cute simple things created by tetsuya watabe called rommy. they’re like wayyyy cheaper paper versions of kid robot stuff (dunnies, munnies, etc.) so not only do they look cool, you get to easily assemble them urself and turn it into a pretty cheap hobby. the artist posts up one every so often and each one is only available for a limited time except the original rommy. so if anyone is as bored as i am and not afraid to get some paper cuts and a little glue on their hands go check them out and other papercrafts as well =]

To the most awesome people in the world =]

i know i complain about my parents a lot and sometimes even say mean things about them but who doesn’t right? but they really are the best parents ever. they’re not the stereotypical chinese parents and i’m so so very thankful that i can’t even begin to explain. they’ve never gotten on my case about not getting A’s in everything and verbally abuse me for doing so. if anything, they encourage me and try to reassure me that things will turn out fine in the end. they don’t try to keep me caged up at home and think that doing so will make me a good child. in fact they tell me to go out and have fun and just try not to get home too late. they’ve never told me that i’m never to be in a relationship or be friends with guys till they give me the ok to do so. of course, them being lenient also has its negative effects but it has allowed so much more communication and understanding between us and has given us such a strong bond. and they’re still stereotypical chinese parents in some ways but i can live with that and is the reason why i’ll thank them here instead of telling it to their faces because that’s just not the chinese way to do things. so thanks dad!!! thanks mom!!! thanks for not adding more crap to these already stressful times!!! i will make an official promise here, witnessed by whoever reads this blog, that i will never abandon you guys and force you to live in a senior home where i’d only visit maybe once a year instead i will try to be as supportive as you have been of me when the time comes that you need it. and i also promise to try my best to not let your encouragement and support go to waste =] I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(another thing that’d be weird for me to say to their faces lol seriously though, they’d look at me and say what kind of drugs are you on right now?o.O) ohh parents…<3

whirlwind

wow i haven’t blogged in a long while…rofl with the never ending tests, papers, assignments, lab reports it has been difficult to have free time =P lets see…to summarize the past month and a half i have gone up to syracuse for easter break to visit friends jenn and sook sook xD erm school work in the middle and just recently celebrated tammy’s 21st birthday two weeks late too! but it was still nice to unwind a bit and do some baking for the event =D made a pomegranate cheesecake and hello kitty strawberry cake pops lol and of course as usual i was very unhappy with the end result. the cheesecake turned out badly even though everyone said it was good (i know they were lying). and alot of my hello kitty cake pops didnt make it to becoming a finished product…out of the 35 i made only 23 survived =\ but anyways here are some pics of me in my contacts on the easter trip and pics of the cakes hope u like =]

PS: thanks jenny for the site and info =]

O.O

SOOOOOOO excited that my circle lenses finally came in the mail today after i ordered them like 3 weeks ago!!!!!!!(damn chinese/malaysian postal services) for those of you who don’t know what circle lenses are they’re colored lenses that have wider colored rims to give the effect of bigger irises. its all the craze in korea, japan, and china right now. i’ve been wanting to get them for a couple of years now, never getting around to it but after one of my friends told me my eyes were too big for my irises i decided it was time lol it definitely does make your eyes look bigger and according to a friend it makes you look like a doll. i got mine from a site called www.pinkyparadise.com (yea i know sounds reallyyyyyy shady) but alot of girls on youtube who review beauty products bought them from this site so i thought it’d be alright. They’re from a korean company called Geo and i got them in brown. They can come in prescription or none and in lots of different colors and designs. one pair is suppose to last a year and cost from $15 to $25 depending on which design you want to buy. i think they’re awesome but i wouldn’t recommend wearing them all the time, its mainly for fashion. if anyone ever thinks about getting a pair they should for those days they just want to add a little something something to their look ;] PICS TO BE POSTED UP SOON =D

Hello world!

Randomly decided to make a blog!!! yayyyyyy…should get kinda interesting or at least i’ll be able to look back at it someday with fond memories…or not…lol anyways just fyi its not really gonna be one of those blogs where i sound poetic and write about deep philosophical things and ponder the mysteries of life although i might blog bout something like that once in a blue moon lol but its gonna mainly be about anything and possibly everything that comes to my mind and things i find that are interesting and hopefully whoever reads this chaotic mess called a blog will find interesting as well xD and hopefully this isn’t gonna end up like all the other things i have attempted at in life, barely started and never to be finished =P